As an unwritten rule to keep me celibate, God has made sure that all women I encounter (and eventually fall for) are either in a relationship (boyfriend or husband), are pregnant or have children. So far, the rule is unbreakable. Obviously, I can sigh in resignation as I watch a lovely lady carry her offspring or cuddle her beloved. Even more devastating is the encounter with the single woman. Yes, it's almost as if I become a good luck charm of sorts to any single girl I decide to like. The single girl finds her significant other almost immediately, to my dismay. I am reminded of the Divine Comedy every day in my life.
Today is assessment day! A lot of exams and a lot of private conversations in between. Until these "moments of truth" are in the open, I did not realize how prevalent sexual immorality had become. Then again, that IS a disadvantage of a priest - to look down from a holier-than-thou pulpit is never a good vantage point of reality. Hence the more realistic placement of Royal Priests - among the people instead of above them. Although, even from here I don't see the logic or virtue in sex for sex's sake, without any meaningful relationship behind it. But then again, I've never had sex, so... I need to rethink the effectivity of servants of God who seem to be so isolated from the real world.
I also ventured into the land of women today! From uncomfortable reverse confessions with a liberal lady to a chat with a chocolate-adrenaline junkie who happens to be an almost-certified nurse (who resourcefully made a way to earn her allowance on the first day, and later today helped the ENTIRE team pass the exams!). Plus lengthy discussions with a happy anime' fan concerning sensible shoes, The Fast and the Furious 3: Tokyo Drift OST, kitchenware, Ferrero Rocher chocolate and the song "Way Back Into Love" from the movie "Music and Lyrics" starring Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore. Women are really my favorite people. It's a shame the rule still stands, but God offers me consolation:
"Do not let your heart envy... but always be zealous for the fear of the Lord. There is surely a future hope for you, and your hope will not be cut off."- Proverbs 23:17, 18
At this point, I'm considering cutting something else off. Just to end my misery.
